apparently I'm supposed to write more... rant more?

well okay fine.
it's just like seriously though... where are all these words going? if someone could please tell me that would be great. i feel like i have spent so much of my time puking out all the things inside of my head/heart to people that would rather fight with me on them than be curious and have a conversation that what i battle with now is... what is the point?! it's like how many people out there really want to learn or grow anyways? someone please tell me that- that would also be great. i know a few personally but then there is the rest of the world- where you at??
coming back here after being in Thailand has just been another reiteration of why i feel like an alien here. the energy here is SO DEAD- like a bunch of little hamsters running around on a track until they die. THE END.  WOO!
thailand is 90% buddhist so maybe that has something to do with it.
the energy there was so alive- no matter what... it just was that way. i felt like people were on missions all around me there and not on missions to hurt people. missions to just be. to be ALIVE. live well. be well. love well. get well. well feels like the root of all that we actually are. easy, smooth, SIMPLE- well.
this society is one big IDIOTTTTTTT! it is so irritating because everything could be SO EASY!!!!!!!
i wish i could stop time on the entire planet.
i wish everyone would have to stop all at once and look in the mirror.
in the mirror would be a list of all the things in their lives that they are neglecting to pay attention to and another list of all the things they spend their time wasting energy on. if people took all the energy they inject into negative, useless crap and put it into things that make them feel like they are actually living we might have some pretty happy people up in this planet....

if every beautiful being stopped caring about what every other beautiful being thought than every beautiful being could just be free to live. -Me