when in the !@#$ am i going to actually say something?

i hold the key but i keep quiet.

waiting for the day when i can convey this passion and these words without anger.

again.

when i can put this and that and these all together and hand it over.

again.

.team.

an existence without the constant reminder of claws tearing at my flesh.

the claws- they come from people that have come to feel the way that i feel now.
.they never got out of it.they never broke free.

.they have never known about the possibilities.

still being criticized.
by those that do not know.

still. still still.



peace. peace. peace.

love. love. love. love.

will. will. will.

kind. kind. kind.

in time. in time. in time.


this process.



i am the teeter-totter. jumping into 'insanity' to heal.
or stay the same way.......................... and do nothing. be irritated, be bored, be useless, be tired..............

i think i would rather be tired, be criticized, be smacked... it would all be worth it as long as i am doing.

being.

evolving.
experiencing.
learning.
creating.
adapting.

loving.

freedom.