it's time to begin isn't it? -update-

so i am back in calgary- the place i run to every time when i need to get away it seems.
is it selfish? am i stupid? weak? no- just tired.
thailand was where i thought i could refuel but was only greeted with more of what i did not want- negativity. so i did my best when i got away from it and i reconnected somewhat to the things i remembered that i wanted to achieve and things have shifted. things have grown and shifted. i feel like i have so much to offer but i struggle now with where to go to develop it- i need those teachers, those mentors, all those who have come before me. where to go to get the time to cultivate it all???

in the meantime i have a plan and this place is where i feel like i have the space to get the momentum rolling. it is also where i have two people that are familiar with clairvoyancy- another gift i wish to continue developing.
it is time to get on with my life, I'm not getting any younger.
side note: as much as i would love too because it takes less energy>>>>> i will never assume anything, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever again
and the lie detector is back on.

right now i am living with a friend on the main floor of a house close to 17th ave and 4th street (which is quite handy) but we will be moving downstairs into another suite where the rent is much cheaper- which means that i will get to save money... that seems smart to me. also the job i have (back to painting for now) pays well and provides the hours. time to pay some stuff off. i will be doing a lot of juggling over the next few years.

-time to write a book and/or workbook for schools
-take the insights course for hypnotherapy through the orca institute
-figure out in october how i can finish my diploma unconventionally as possible...
(all online and practicum in indonesia at idep?? - friends non-profit for disaster relief)
-after diploma and trip start taking science courses online ---- NEUROSCIENCE here i come. seriously.
- incorporating the forest, bikes, surfing, yoga and
- connecting energy healing and everything else >>> neuroscience <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<< positive vs. negative. thoughts/ words etc.
-peace, love, forgiveness, spirituality cha cha cha
-food

" earthly possessions are not what you came here

to gather.

Do not worry about your earthly possessions. Place

your attention on your heavenly goal--the evolution of

your soul--and you will find peace even while on earth."

THIS IS WHEN I FEEL THE BEST- when i have time to sit down and make all these connections. this is when i feel like me, this is when i feel happy. i could be a machine if i stay on track.
i can't wait until i have a bedroom again- a sanctuary for my solitude and sorting.

everything really is a choice, everything. everyday, every minute. we choose how we live those moments of our lives- no one else and every choice has a consequence. what will i choose today? I'm choosing to listen......