And this is where i just admit.

That this has been one of the hardest things i have ever done in my entire life.
To go back into rules, boundaries and no money.
People say im dramatic... well what if i say you just have no idea.
I could not do this without help so thank you.
I know what is possible and im doing this in hopes of being able to one day show you what i mean.
In the meantime- twilight zone/possible new study zone.... :S